ER

My kids have been suffering from their allergies for about a week. So, Monday I was giving Patrick some triaminic cough syrup. I didn't think twice when I left the room to give it to him and left it open by the bathroom sink. I walk back in to catch Zoe drinking it from the bottle! I took it from her and tried to figure out how much she had drank. When I realized it was a lot, I grabbed my phone and called her doctors office. They told me to take her straight to the ER. They also gave me the number to poison control for later uses. I grabbed both kids, both very upset because I was, called Matt and my sister (the babysitter) and told them I was taking Zoe to the ER. My awesome sister called my boss for me! Thank goodness because I was a mess!
So we get there and I was in the right state of mind that I grabbed the bottle of medicine. They took us right back and took Zoe's temp and vitals. They were more worried about me then her! LOL! I was freaked out because I know some kids have died from od's of things like that. It was a pm so it has stuff to help them sleep!
Matt met us there. The doctor checked her out and looked over the bottle of syrup. He figured she drank a fourth of the bottle and 6 times the normal dose! Thank God there is nothing dangerous in tryaminic! They just told us to keep an eye on her and if anything else happens to bring her back. I also needed to stay home with her for the next few days. She slept it off. She woke up in such a good mood.
I have to say, I learned a huge lesson! This could have turned out so much worse! It really freaked me out! I will return to work tomorrow. And she has returned to her normal self.

The Rainbow Bridge

The Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven lies the Rainbow Bridge.

When a beloved pet dies, it goes to the Rainbow Bridge. It makes friends with other animals and frolics over rolling hills and peaceful, lush meadows of green.

Our pets do not thirst or hunger. The old and sick are made young once more; the maimed and ill become healed and strong. They are as healthy and playful as we remember them in days gone by.

Though happy and content, they still miss someone very special, someone they had to leave behind.

Together, the animals chase and play, but the day comes when a pet will suddenly stop and look into the distance... bright eyes intent, eager body quivering. Suddenly recognizing you, your pet bounds quickly across the green fields and into your embrace. You celebrate in joyous reunion. You will never again separate. Happy tears and kisses are warm and plenty; your hands caress the face you missed. You look once more into the loving eyes of your pet and you know you never really parted. You realize that though out of sight, your love had been remembered.

And now, you cross the Rainbow Bridge together...

M. A. Preston

OK

So after a really bad few days, I am starting to pull out of the dark. It's so weird not having him around. I'm so thankful for all the suport that my friends and family has given me. He was like our first born, he was our son. One thing that I think about now is that I KNOW he is in a way better place where he doesn't hurt anymore. He is running and jumpping in an open field under a hot summer sun. And I know I will see him again!
Yesterday when we were all leaving the house (after I blogged) Zoe looked around and said "Amigo is gone!?" It was sad. She knew he was no longer there but it seemed to kick in when she saw his cenal was no longer in the front room. It's so hard to try to explain death to a child. They just don't understand. I'm doing a lot better though. I have stopped crying over every little thing.
We couldn't bring ourselfs to leave him at the vets, and I'm glad we brought him home because now I know where he is. I know this might sound weird to some people, but if you have ever loved someone or something so much you will understand.

Amigo

As all of you know from facebook, we had to put our dog Amigo to sleep yesterday. He will be missed a lot!
We received Amigo right after we got married, he was about 6 weeks old. He was so small, just a little bigger than a hair brush. We raised him, and potty trained him. I remember his cenal next to the bed at night and having to get up in the middle of the night so he could pee. He had this little bunny that he slept with so he wouldn't cry. It was one of those bunnies Artice Circle gives away at Easter time. It was the same size as him! He was in love with Matt, when ever Matt left the house he would stand at the door and cry forever. Amigo kind of dated the dog across the street, her name is Bell. Around Christmas 08 they ended up hooking up! The week of Valentines Day she had a litter of four puppies. We ended up bringing one home. We named him Flint. He just turned one.
A few weeks ago Amigo was crying a lot when ever he moved. So Matt took him to the vet. They said he pulled something in his neck, they gave him some soft food and some pills for pain. It seemed like he was turning around and doing a lot better. He went to his follow up visit and was fine. Then last week some time he did it again. When we came home on Easter Day he was walking funny. The next morning he wouldn't come out of his cenal. So Matt asked me to work with to go outside to go potty. I finally got him out but he was walking like he was drunk, he kept falling over even while he was peeing. I called Matt at work and we talked about it. We decided to take him to the vet again that night. When he called the vet he told them that he thought we needed to put him down. So when we got there they charged us for euthanasta (spelling?). We go in the back and ask the vet to look him over one last time. She said she still thought it was in his neck..... now I didn't go to school and I'm not a doctor, but there is no way she could convinse me that there was nothing wrong with is spine or brain. The exercies they had him do looked like he had a stock. It was the right side of his body that didn't want to work. We asked what we could and she said she could different drugs on him but there was no saying if anything would take the edge off for him or if they would do anything at all for him. Matt and I looked at eachother and knew. We decided to let him go.
We held him while they tried to get a vain, it took forever because he hadn't ate or drank at all yesterday. They poked him like five times. At one point they thought they had a vain and put the medicine in but the vain burst and he had a pocket of fluid under the skin. We asked if that would make his death long and they said no it just relaxed him. Which it did. When they finally got the vain it was fast. He was in my arms and it was so peaceful. They cleaned up and ledt us alone with him for as long as we needed. Matt held him for, it seems like half an hour. We did some paw prints with an ink pad because Matt wants to get a tat. Then we put him back in his cenal and went home. Matt covered it with a blanket and put him in the front room. We didn't have the heart to put him in the garage or leave him in the car.
This morning Matt got up and dug a hole in our back yard by our shed. I decided to put him in a pillow sham that we never have used. It was silky and soft. We took his coller off, so we can frame it, put him in the sham and Matt laid him to rest.
He will always be remembered! He will always be loved! Our house will never be the same!
I find myself calling Flint Amigo. It is going to take some getting use to. Zoe doesn't under stand. She is too young. When Matt talked to her, he told her Amigo was going to go to heaven. She said to him, "but he is not Jesus' dog!" Then when I talked to her yesterday I told her Amigo would not be coming home from the doctors. She did not want us to take him to the vets. This has been one of the hardest things I have had to go through. One thing that is super hard for me, is to see my husband, who is my rock, so upset! Every time he cries it makes me cry.
All will pass, with time we will recover.